I totally got no idea why... But I was thinking of this song, just the tune, especially the starting! Without knowing the name of the song... I actually found it! On the first try! This is really a special song~ Although it's too late... It still... Sing out my feelings...
I feel as if I am destroying myself every time I am at home... No one to talk to... Just look through, the torture and pain came... But really... What can I do? It's all too late...
I am lost... Totally unable to react... Unable to speak... Unable to be that "Jason" you always knew... You just... seems so far away... Only hiding behind my keyboard where I can truly express myself... I can't even look you in the eyes... Can't even say a simple "Hi"... I know I am really acting strangely whenever you are around... But... Please... Don't ask me what's happening... I won't tell you... Ever... I just feels that everything else will change for the worst if I speak...
I hope I can really get over with this... This suffering... Which had been clinging me ever since February... It has always been there... Just a degree of pain I am being inflicted... Distraction works... Only temporary... Unable to get a solution... This is what I hate...
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